Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
I think there are so many reminders about having faith and trusting God in the Bible because we need those reminders...lots of them. Keep the faith. Run the race. Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Some days that is the most difficult thing to do. Do I even know what it is like to trust someone with my whole heart? Could I imagine myself falling backwards into the arms of Jesus knowing without a doubt that He will catch me? Honestly, no, I can't imagine doing that. Yet. But I know as I read the Bible and read these reminders, it will become part of my nature to let go and trust God.

And lean not unto your own understanding
This is me in a nutshell. (Help! Help! I'm in a nutshell!) I've burned up the internet searching for answers for Emily's problems. I am trying to figure all of this out myself. I am having great difficulty handing this over to God. It seems that on days when I finally give it over, something new or worse happens, and I start the whole cycle all over again. This is really stupid, and I must stop it! Emily has competent, compassionate doctors sent to us by our loving God who cares about her and wants the best for her. This has to be enough! I know God is telling me to wait. To be patient. And to stop trying to figure this out myself. He has a plan. He knows in advance what will happen. I must find comfort in that!